It's the Final Countdown!

I am only hours away now from learning if I am in full molecular remission. I know that I shouldn't put all my eggs in one basket, but I cannot help but do so. This is an exciting day, now that I actually know what the PCR test is (I wasn't really sure as to what it was last time I got it done, as I hadn't done any research).

I'm telecommuting for work today, and am bundled up in my bathrobe and fuzzy Christmas socks while listening to some jazz on the radio. I'm desperately trying to be productive, while I'm getting a lot accomplished for work, I cannot help but keep catching myself getting distracted. I feel like the child on Christmas eve who's been told to go to bed or else Santa Clause won't arrive with presents, and all I want to do is leap out of bed and run to the bedroom window to wait for that little red nose to light up in the sky. The results of being in full molecular remission, for me, is Rudolph's red nose.

I have been saying for weeks now, as family and friends start asking me what I want for Christmas and all I can tell them is I want to be in full molecular remission. I'd give anything to not just celebrate the holidays, but actually celebrate with a purpose! Looking at things now, I suppose I feel that materialistic things like fancy ceramic watches, video game systems, electronics, clothing, shoes, etc. are insignificant in comparison to the one wish I deeply desire. Yes, the monetary satisfaction that comes from those gifts is wonderful, there's no doubt about that in my mind. However, I feel that the 100% remission results would be something that fills that hole in my being, that brings pure joy to my soul which allows that extra hop of confidence in my step.

However, for now... I wait. Just a little over 4 hours to go now before the results are in.